the author.

name: deborah lee
age: 20
school: nyp, sbm
location: normanton park residence
loves: ?

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the people.

dilys
ying jia
andrea
debbie poh
daphne
wennie
gilda
kailing
coreen
yiting
hafeez
val
brother
xiaowen
ailing
y.j
aziela
june
aishah
christal
joanne
sharifah
wileen
lancaster
samantha
jean
mila
the voices.

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the creditables.

king i n c.
blogskins
blogger ying jia

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Tuesday, January 30, 2007

i don't know what to do anymore.

here i have, the perfect man, oh well, almost perfect husband material who wants to marry me in future but my heart does not seem to want to follow. which girl won't want a boyfriend who pampers them, understands them, lets them drive his car and disregards all the other suitors? after 3 years of relationship with richard, i still don't know. don't know what i want. i want to have fun, go out with friends, more guys or whatever. I'm not even 21, let alone speak about marriage. why should i be disallowed of dating other guys? it's just a social thing, ain't it anymore? I don't intend to marry till 28 and richard does not share the same view. he wants to marry me when I'm 23/24. No way. Then again, he's perfect. I want that too. But he can't seem to understand, I need my space with my frds. Dosent like me going out with friends at night. Goodness, I'm not a housewife to wait on you, darling.

So you see, I don't know what to do. Lost the love after what happened last week. We can never understand one another, you will never understand I need my space and always want to follow me around even when it's just going to Rong's to pass my lanyard. I cant take that sorta caged up treatment. So, I guess we gotta let it go sooner or later.

But i can't bare to. He's irreplacable.

Help me, Lord.

313am, 31/1/07, wed

deborah...» 11:06 AM

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